Epiphany: The Old Me is Dead & Gone.........It's over....

The old me has died & gone away. The songs in my head this morning after praying to the Lord are Epiphany by Chrisette Michelle & Dead and Gone by T.I. , my crush (it's the swagger). My Epiphany: I'm 28yrs, single (for the 1st time in my adult life), no kids, brilliant, creative, talented, beautiful (inside out), fabulous, a survivor, employed, I have shelter, clothing, food, a wonderful family, & fab friends, and I am blessed, highly favored, & loved unconditionally by God ! I have a banging life, full of endless possibilities, and I'm not utilizing it to the fullest! I may not have achieve all my goals, career, marriage, child, lose 18 lbs, own & operate my own fashion label, boutiques, or self-esteem expert/ life coach, but I have control of MY world and it will all come.

My girl, Tracie (the fabu therapist), always talks about breaking our pattern. My after break up pattern is to go from work to home or Sis's house across the street, possibly to the gym, and sleeping a lot. Don't get me wrong I'm not pining for the Mr. DJ at all. You know I am going to real transparent with my Brown Glam girls. It's like I'm in a holding pattern waiting for the next guy to come along. It's a learned pattern (that generational bull), but I am so over it! (My girl Marilyn's advice is be a pimp, LOL!)

I'm over that & the good enough life. I want more, more exposure, more fun, more purpose, more joy & more happiness, and of course more money. And I do realize I am (or was ) the only one holding me back from these things. The only limits on our lives are the limits we put on ourselves. I'm done with the back ground living, looking at other's lives coveting ( breaking one of the 10 commandments) their fab lives (which is really an illusion b/c no one has a perfect life) and wondering where I went wrong. You know where I (and many others ) have gone wrong? We sit back & wait for life to happen to us, for it to come knock on our doors, I'm so over of sitting on the couch waiting ish to happen!!

I love this quote by Walter Russell : "Mediocrity is self-inflicted, Genius is self-bestowed." So what kind of life do you want?! I don't know about you, but I want to an Extra Ordinary Fabulous Life!! To do that I (and you if you want the same) have to do EXTRA! Get the heck off the couch, apply to school, learn to salsa , take a pole dancing class or 2 for you not him, take the french class, volunteer, go to the movies alone, go the museum, throw a party just because you & your friends & family are amazing , do something!!!!!! As long as we have breathe in our bodies, and use of our limbs, we should never be bored!

I've been told that in the Spiritual world " 8" is the number of new beginnings. Well, 28 , is my year of new beginning. I left shyness, insecurity, self-doubt, ordinary, and everything else negative & unproductive back at 27yrs.I'm doing me & to Hell with other's think, can't accept or have to say, I'm only here to please God & me! I'm doing the hell out me!

The Epiphany: Tomorrow is surely not promised to any of us (I'm sure we all already knew that), and I can't report to Heaven like this, I haven't begun to live yet! I raise my glass to toast The Summer of Doin' me hard!! Besos!! Love you all too much! God bless!

Hit me up & tell me how how you're Doin' You!

xoxo
Your Fab Brown Glam Girl

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